random captured

captured it when me & rock gal dine in roppan. everytime we dine in, I've always imagined how is it too see her and his man, being a vape like I used to for my other couple friend.. :p or dine in a double date, hahaha :))



capture it on a plane on my way to surabaya, kinda lucky to see this angle. but bad luck for loosing the original file



captured it on my walk to trakkindo after finishing work. wondering why people have less attention to the trees while tree has this amazing look

childhood

what I do when I was a kid :

1. main sepeda keliling kompleks sama anak-anak ruko. dulu langsung minta beliin sepeda sama papa waktu liat yg lain main sepeda. Lalu setelah punya sepeda, sepedaan keliling komplek malem-malem

2. berenang pas jalanan banjir. ini jorok. I know

3. bolos ngaji si TPA karena takut dimarahin guru ngaji gara-gara belum bisa baca iqra, atau bolos karena mau nonton baja hitam rx & sailormoon

4. pulang ke rumah mbah pas istirahat sekolah buat minta jajanan di tokonya mbah

5. berburu belalang sama saudara sepupu di petak tanah kosong

6. treat a maid badly like a boss, and soon my attitude was fixed by momma :))

7. setiap ada saudara nikah, selalu berdiri di deket meja hidangan dessert, malah sampe duduk di dapur di sebelah kerangjang buah kelengkeng

8. selalu takut sama pelajaran matematika

9. sering buang sayur yang dituang mama ke tong sampah, apalagi kalo sayur labu. huek

10. suka nuang pasir ke kepalanya si adek pas dia masih kecil, gw jg nggak inget kenapa suka banget ngelakuin ini ke dia. maaf ya, dek :))

11. sangat suka minta papa main ke tempat mama, makan opor bikinan mama sambil nunggu pertunjukan sulap david cooperfield, & dipakein kaos mama yg kegedean buat bobok

12. selalu mengira akan jadi seorang insyinyur kayak mama, dan bekerja seperti papa. fact : too dumb to finish a simple aljabar formula

13. dari kecil emang susah senyum

14. makan bakso nggak pernah pake kuah, malah nuang saos + kecap sampe banjir. I lost my appendix because of that :))

15. ada angkot buat pulang, tapi lebih suka pulang lewat sawah sama sepupu

16. nggak pernah membantah kalo dimarahin, anak baik bukan? :))

17. kalo sakit mesti diopname, dikasih kamar yang itu-itu terus sama org rumah sakit, saking seringnya opname...suster di situ sampe hapal muka gue sampe sekarang

18. jadi suka bau rumah sakit karena sering opname

19. kalo telapak tangan gatel suka gesek-gesekin telapak tangan ke dagu papa yg ada jenggot tajem-tajemnya

20. kalo dibonceng naik motor sm papa di depan selalu diuwel-uwel kepalanya sm papa...pake dagunya -__-"

21 pertama kali nonton film dengan serius adalah pas nonton my girl. mungkin karena itu gw benci sad ending

22. lebih rajin nulis cerita dari pada dengerin guru ngomong

23. nggak pernah bisa jawab pertanyaan di depan kelas, takut dimarahin


23 aja, pas kan sama umur. Harusnya dulu udah ada fitur video, jadi bisa ngerekam keseharian diri sendiri.. :D

some people do, some people dont

there's something people can do, good at it. and some people can't do it.

some people can say what they wanted to say, some people dont. I dont
why is it so hard to talk? to talk, for God's sake. To talk. Why is it so hard? I didn't know what makes me so hard to talk, especially when I'm wrong, and I need to talk to them whom I messed up. The guilt eating me?
some people can relieve their angry when they fed up, some people dont. I dont
I fed up all the time. And yet nobody ever see me angry at all. I fed up, I quite like a stone :))
some people can keep the truth for their own mind only, my mom can do it. I dont
after all this time, mom can keep : "i dont know anything about you at all actually, kid" from me
some people good at doing thing spontaneously, some people dont. I dont
to think a lot is my curse. the term 'gimana nanti' cant work on me, 'nanti gimana?' is the one that always work. think to much, fear to much.
some people good at being a person, I dont
some people good at being a sister, I dont
some people good at being a daughter, I dont
some people good at being a friend, I dont
but i do good at making sin and mistake


duh, jadi pengen nyaplok coklat

at 12.13

I supposed to sleep right now, but due to my heart is emotionally rushing, I can't.

Last assigment has been eating me slowly. Hahaha, namanya juga kewajiban. Akhirnya ngerasain juga apa yang dirasain temen-temen lain waktu ribet ngerjain skripsi. Sadly is, quota wisuda penuh. Jadi, ane wisuda tahun depan, gan.. *gantung diri*

Di sela-sela kerja (yes, I'm working now, dear blog. As a chaperone) sambil ngerjain skripsi, waktu senggang yang saya punya jelas dipake buat tidur/jalan-jalan/beberes/ketemuan sama temen/nonton. Yang terakhir yang paling jarang dilakukan. Untung cuma ada beberapa film bagus* (*definisi bagus di sini relatif. Bisa jadi aktornya yang bagus, plot filmnya yang bagus, atau sutradaranya yang bagus) yang emang jadi inceran. Taken 2, cuma karena Liam Neeson. Dan Looper, karena Bruce willis & Joseph gordon levit. Agak-agak ngarep waktu itu bisa ngejar catch 44, lantaran ada adegan bruce willis pake kemeja nggak dikancingin, lalu dia joget-joget... *lap keringet*

Looper, saudara-saudara...adalah film mengenai time travel. Di mana di masa yg akan datang, para penjahat ngebuang target pembunuhan ke masa lalu buat dibunuh, and thus..they had no evidence. Beberapa menit film main, yang saya pikirin cuma 1 : KENAPA ALIS JOSEPH SEREM BANGET, YA ALLAH? KENAPA IDUNGNYA BEGITU?!. Ternyata, dia dimakeup semirip mungkin sama bruce willis. Well... :|



up above was the scene I love the most. You can tell how marvelous Bruce willis is..

8/6/2012

kalian mending mana? cinta ditolak atau nggak mengungkapkan cinta?

gue jawab, "mending cinta ditolak". Nggak lama kemudian ada sahutan, "di mana letak mendingnya?" :))

Di mana letak mendingnya? I'll tell...

Cinta ditolak, itu memang luar biasa sakit rasanya. Kenapa sakit? karena ada harapan di situ. Harapan untuk dicintai balik. Kebanyakan ketika kita sayang/cinta sm orang lain, seiringan pula kita juga mau dicintai balik. Kita mau ngerasain yg namanya dicium atau dipeluk orang yang kita sayang. Selain kamu sayang sm orang yang kamu sayang, bukankah kamu juga menyayangi dirimu sendiri? :)

Berulang kali gue marah, kesel, dongkol. Mungkin bukan karena sikap dia yang salah, atau juga karena ucapan dia salah. Tapi jangan-jangan karena apa yang dia lakukan tidak sesuai dengan apa yang gue mau? Siapa tau kan?

Once a friend said, "mencintai itu ya mencintai, tidak ada aktif pasif di dalamnya. Mencintai ya mencintai, tidak termasuk dicintai di dalamnya"

Kalo dipikir-pikir, itu bener. Mencintai ya mencintai. Bagaimana orang yang kamu cintai/sayangi terhadapmu, itu urusan dia. Tapi, menghilangkan "I love me more" itu nggak semudah ngapus tulisan pake penghapus kan?

End of the month

It's gonna be july soon. I dont know whether shall I happy or sad. Been almost two month had these trash inside my head. How could a thought could destroy my mood?

I think of them often. Them is those who were my closest people. I think of the moment that got away. And nothing can bring it back. How bad is it to remember things and regret things at the same time?

I remember the time when we were so silly joking each other. Talking about the future like we had a clue (it's katy perry's song btw :D ). The time when you oftenly type a silly emoticon when we chat. The time when you joke me with a kind of vulgar joke ever. The time when you say ' I'm here, pumpkin' as you really mean it. The time when me and my bestfriend hanging out and playing a silly games we called 'abc labyrinth'. The time when we gone crazy for some old places. And the list still go on...

I forgot that time flies. Time flies and bring the moment away. I might have the person back, but can I have the moment again too? Many things happen, bad and good thing. When the good thing happen, I shall gratitude. And realize that good thing might not happen twice...

I wish I could just go back to 2009 when we first met. I missed our mail. I wish I could go back to 2007 when I firstly step my feet to campus. I wish I could, but I couldnt. It's a moment that got away...

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3:39 am

Pernah denger "curiosity kills the cat"? Menurut gue itu salah. Harusnya "curiosity kills those who posses it"

Temen gue bilang, "kamu mikir itu karena mampu berdialektika. bukan perkara butuh atau tidak"

Tega ya?

I dont need this dialectics method. Lama-lama capek juga loh mikirin hal yang nggak perlu. Udah berusaha buat ngalihin pikiran. Tapi selalu datang lagi-datang lagi. Ini sejenis kutukan mungkin.

I question a lot. And mostly I have no answer at all. Perhaps, it's what make me sick